Gym Struggles 

5 days into my cleanse and I’m still alive and standing. To be fair eating has not been an issue for me, in fact it has pushed me to try new foods and become more proactive when making myself meals. 

Before this I was not really into fish that much but because I’m not allowed to eat meat I’ve had no choice. I’ve tried two new types of fish in the past five days; salmon and mackerel! I know, I know these are every day types of fish for people but I just have never had them. I like both and even after the cleanse hope to keep them in my diet. 

I would say the only thing I have struggled with is not having cheese and butter on my Jacket potato, it’s suggested to use natural yoghurt instead of butter or mayo. I really really cannot even bring myself to try that. I just can’t. In fact I actually won’t (lol). So yes I have been having cheese and butter on my potato, I could of just had butter but if you’re being naughty go all out aye! 

So I’ve got the healthy eating down but what about working out? 

I am struggling so much to even muster up motivation to work out. I simply cannot be bothered. I don’t even want to step foot in the gym! It doesn’t help that my gym cancelled my box fit class that I was going to force myself to go to, is it a sign me and the gym are not meant to be?! 

Probably not because if I want any kind of results I will have to work out. I’m hoping some sort of motivation will come to me and I will work out at least twice by Sunday. My aim right now is to try and work out three times a week. 

So if you have any tips for being motivated to work out send them my way! 

It was just not meant to be! Class Cancelled …

Can I buy motivation on Amazon?

So I’m still recovering from jet lag which has kind of hindered my plans to start eating healthy and working out right after my holiday. 

Unlike normal people before my holiday to Jamaica I did not work out and eat right in preparation of being in a bikini. I lacked motivation. Like many people in order to be really determine and motivated to go to the gym or go for a run and prepare healthy eating plans you have to be in the right place mentally otherwise it just won’t work. 

I feel like before my trip I was stressed for many different reasons and lacked motivation to change my lifestyle and even in my career, I felt like I was stuck. Since returning to London I have come back with a clear mind (jet lag fogginess will not stop me) and I am ready for change. Change in my career, a new creative outlet and a new way of living in the sense of diet and exercise. 

I quiet like walking and running I find it therapeutic but the gym is not my friend. I get disheartened and distracted. Last year I had a personal trainer who I shared with my friend and I found it really helpful and was happy with the results. 

So why did I stop?  I guess I got comfortable with the results I had achieved and instead of maintaining or progressing I became complacent. Complacently leads to falling back into old habits for me they are eating junk and just not being active. As well as having a negative effect on your body physically it can have a detrimental affect on your mental health. 

In April I had a rough time dealing with anxiety and it got so bad I was having panic attacks in public and had to seek medical advice – I believe this was due to a lot of things going wrong in the last 8 months leading up to April. Thankfully I have over come that with slight hiccups now and then. My point is that the balance of a healthy diet and exercise is really good for mind body and soul – mind and soul should never be ignored as it is connected to the physical and when one is out of sync nothing can run smoothly. 

In this fast paced world fuelled by the internet, social media and the never ending pressures of society we must take time to look after our whole selves . 

So now I feel calm and at peace it is a good time for me to get back to a balanced lifestyle and just be over all a happier person. 

I will take time to document my journey with the good and the bad, hopefully I can motivate people to make the changes they want in their lives. Positive vibrations to all X 


Ocho Rios, Jamaica 2017 

Currently listening to the Miseducation of Lauryn Hill -/ favourite song To Zion ft Carlos Santana