So I haven’t posted in a while. I’ve been going through some challenges and needed to take a break from my blog for a minute. But I’m back now!
This post is called reflection because these last weeks I have been reflecting and trying to adapt to changes that have happened in my life. So many things have changed and it took me a while to realise lol.
My friend actually said to me last night that I’ve changed abit, I’ve become more reserved she said and it’s true that’s how I’ve become with a lot of things now.
People leave your life & friendships can change so it’s really important to make sure that you are able to be there for yourself & have your own back because at the end of the day you’re born alone and will eventually die alone. ( I know it sounds morbid and slightly depressive but it’s the honest truth)
I’m not saying don’t confide in people but make sure you’re good on your own as well because you never know what will happen. I’m still working on this and if this means I’m becoming more reserved, I guess that’s who I’m growing into.
I’m definitely happier than I was a few weeks ago but as always there’s room for progress.
Work is going really well, I really enjoy my new job – it’s literally the dream practice I’ve always hoped for.
I’m getting into the spirit of Christmas, it’s my favourite time of year. I love seeing all the Christmas lights on Oxford Street and Marylebone High Street, it’s all so pretty!
9:49 Sunday morn’ and I’m still sleepy (I’ve been awake since 6:30 not by choice). I feel like the last few days have been mentally productive which is basically where I mentally plan and think about what I want to achieve in the near future with my blog and other possible creative outlets (podcast pending?)
Changing my eating habits has led me to try and have more clarity in life when it comes to relationships and life in general. I have recently been trying to focus on meaningful things in life which I guess could be hard especially for the younger generation when the media only focuses on the superficial, fake lives of instagram ‘celebs’ and fake news (fake news = news stories which have been modified by people who like to control the thoughts and feelings of the public, not presenting the real facts or both sides of a story. So basically propaganda).
This week I would like to focus on maintaining positive vibrations which is just me creating positive mental images in my mind and having a clear positive thought process. This is important because your feelings map out how events happen in your life. Vibrations are released by you into the universe and the universe responds by giving you what you feel and think whether that is positive or negative. I read ‘Raise Your Vibration’ by Kyle Gray and it really helps keep me focused on the positive.
No matter what you believe I think that a spiritual connection is really important to keep a level head, have peace and be greatful for what life gives you. It’s not something you can master in 1 day or even 1 year but it’s a journey that always has you learning and changing for the better.
Here are some links that keep me positive and level headed even when life gets tough;
Tony Robbins – How to live in a beautiful state and feel joy / https://youtu.be/Q93i3GIaqCY (check out other Tony Robbins videos for more motivation)
The Secret / https://youtu.be/Bb4SB2rCbGs
So I’m still recovering from jet lag which has kind of hindered my plans to start eating healthy and working out right after my holiday.
Unlike normal people before my holiday to Jamaica I did not work out and eat right in preparation of being in a bikini. I lacked motivation. Like many people in order to be really determine and motivated to go to the gym or go for a run and prepare healthy eating plans you have to be in the right place mentally otherwise it just won’t work.
I feel like before my trip I was stressed for many different reasons and lacked motivation to change my lifestyle and even in my career, I felt like I was stuck. Since returning to London I have come back with a clear mind (jet lag fogginess will not stop me) and I am ready for change. Change in my career, a new creative outlet and a new way of living in the sense of diet and exercise.
I quiet like walking and running I find it therapeutic but the gym is not my friend. I get disheartened and distracted. Last year I had a personal trainer who I shared with my friend and I found it really helpful and was happy with the results.
So why did I stop? I guess I got comfortable with the results I had achieved and instead of maintaining or progressing I became complacent. Complacently leads to falling back into old habits for me they are eating junk and just not being active. As well as having a negative effect on your body physically it can have a detrimental affect on your mental health.
In April I had a rough time dealing with anxiety and it got so bad I was having panic attacks in public and had to seek medical advice – I believe this was due to a lot of things going wrong in the last 8 months leading up to April. Thankfully I have over come that with slight hiccups now and then. My point is that the balance of a healthy diet and exercise is really good for mind body and soul – mind and soul should never be ignored as it is connected to the physical and when one is out of sync nothing can run smoothly.
In this fast paced world fuelled by the internet, social media and the never ending pressures of society we must take time to look after our whole selves .
So now I feel calm and at peace it is a good time for me to get back to a balanced lifestyle and just be over all a happier person.
I will take time to document my journey with the good and the bad, hopefully I can motivate people to make the changes they want in their lives. Positive vibrations to all X
Ocho Rios, Jamaica 2017
Currently listening to the Miseducation of Lauryn Hill -/ favourite song To Zion ft Carlos Santana